where's the in between if everyone's me?

things are weird again I guess

The semester is almost over. One paper, one lab report, finals, and done.

I think I have somehow become stressed out enough that I am longing for Globe. It's a weird thing.

turn on turn on turn on turn on

I am running out.

also, I am procrastinating on a paper, but I write better at 5AM so whatevs.

I am thinking about the future too much. I need to take it easy, maybe, but this does not seem like a thing I would be able to do easily.

It is fairly cold outside now. I like being outside at night until my fingers feel like they will never function properly again, and then coming inside and trying to do something that requires dexterity and being able to do it, but not actually feeling like I am doing anything. I like anything that gives a level of abstraction from the physical world. Like I exist, but not quite.

I don't want it to be break yet, but I need it so much. I need to be away from everything. I need the abstraction from reality. Being in Globe always makes me feel like I am living at 1 cuil, so I guess that is appropriate.

I want to be mopey by myself. It is hard when there is always someone who is willing to humor me, and take the blame. It's not your fault; I just happen to be a crazy person.

Anyway.

Things that are occurring right now:

There is a condom full of juice in my freezer.

some people need nothing and want nothing and are free

music is a good thing, except when it is not.

Plants vs. Zombies is the perfect mindless game ever.

A's in classes are also good.

Math classes in the summer = one of my favorite favorite favorite things that is going to happen every year

I do not know why summer is so conducive to maths! I am not complaining though.

mechanical pencils and tearing pages out of notebooks are fun

safety pins instead of staples because I do not have a stapler. No one is telling me not to, though.

late nights are not quite fun, but there is no need for early mornings, so why not.

though tbh, I prefer early mornings before the sun is fully awake and still skeepy. This is the best time to do homework. This is the best time. Everything is quiet and soft and not quite real and you can't quite focus and that makes it easier to focus.

Oh man, do I miss Erik.

he is a person who is important to me.

we have been talking more lately, and this makes me so happy.

I like talking to him late at night when we are both tired and can't stay awake. It makes me feel better about everything, like nothing is wrong, and nothing was wrong, and nothing will be wrong ever.

It is okay that this is not true. I am okay. Well, I am better. We will see how the fall goes when there are lots of people and I care about every single one.

I miss you.

I wanted to show you how mad is my love

LESS THAN A MONTH.

this is a thing to be super excited about.

Auto-Tune the News #5

courtesy of tucker

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to people (or not) and include me. Try not to repeat a song title. It's harder than you think.

Pick Your Artist: reggie and the full effect

Are you male or female: drunk girl at the get up kids show

Describe yourself: girl, why'd you run away?

How do you feel about yourself: getting by with it's

Describe your current boy/girl situation: thanx 4 stayin

Describe where you currently live: take me home, please

If you could go anywhere you wanted to go: boot to the moon

Your favorite form of transportation: what won't kill you eats gas

Your best friend(s) is(are): pick up the phone master p

Your favorite color is: your bleedin heart

Favorite time of day: drunk girl at the get up kids show (guess jeans, awnings, old navy)

If your life were a TV show, what would it be called: dwarf invasion

What is life to you: linkin verbs

What is the best advice you have to give: everything's okay

If you could change your name, what would it be: fiona apple can kiss my black ass

Thought for the Day: relive the magic...bring the magic home

How I would like to die: the trooth

My soul's present condition: your girlfriends hate me

words I am into

skeepy

skrd

erm. I don't know which blog this belongs in, but this one seems a little neglected.

Spencer told me to listen to Passion Pit?

I am pretty sure I told him to listen to them months ago.

I don't mean to be a hipster or anything...

Well yeah. I completely mean to be a hipster.

But only ironically.

So I really like The Knife?

Thanks Joe.

phone calls > any other form of communication

well, I guess it isn't better than actually being there (sometimes it is)

but if you want to tell me something, or just talk, call. Skype is alright, but more often than not it is just distracting.

real close

This has been a good day : )

I talked to Benito Marquez about pokemon (not fanfiction though)

I made incredibly strange dinner with Rio

I do not have homework

I destroyed that test

Yeah, today's an okay day

Also

headphones >>>>>>>> laptop speakers

it feels like the music is in my brain.

Also, the music just sounds different. There is so much depth. I had never noticed before.

I think I am high on late nights and melancholy?

higher and higher and higher

Passion Pit.

I think I have a favorite band?

I don't even fucking care what they are saying I just feel better when I listen to them

the cascadey notes make me giggle every time

Joe and I talked to xbmodder on the phone today. It was sort of awesome. I like people.

I feel really accomplished right now.

http://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/8pmqb/what_is_reddits_breakfast_of_champions/

As of this posting, I am at 45 and bacon is at 14.

what.

trying to force some happiness

things that are good right now:

1. going back to Tempe in two days.

ummm.

that's sort of it.

lies

There are plenty of things to be happy about.
I have friends, and they care.
I am so busy; everyone is inviting me to do stuff. I actually have to refuse so I can get some time to myself.
Everyone is so nice to me too, even though I cry a lot.

So, I guess, thanks?

I don't think

there will be many happy blogs in the near future. I suggest you check leahdislike.blogspot.com if you wanna know what's up.

I'm pretty cheap.

Convenience!

There are advantages to being small.

IHOP

I sat in IHOP for over four hours today with Spencer, Alex, Matt, and my mom. It was neat!
It was the perfect sort of distraction. I am honestly doing much more okay now.

I think I am actually sort of happy right now? I'm excited for D&D Saturday, and possibly with our group.
I am going to play a bard!

Tomorrow, I think there are plans for some Mel Brooks.

necessary sad post

on happy blog.

bleh.

Erik is leaving. So that's neat.



I'll be fine, though. I sort of have to be.





Check the sad blog later.

the phrase "holy hell"

It just sounds good? There's alliteration, but it's not obnoxious. Something about "h" makes it better, too.

Umm, there was a poem I had to read for Coulter's class last year called "The Alchemy of H"
It was neat, I suppose.
something about se & e.
drowhning

It was one of the better ones we had to analyze, I think.

Lolita

by Throw Me the Statue has completely invaded my brainspace.

"We could do it all, and it'd all go faster.
Things could multiply at appalling rates.
Then we'd lose our heads and we'd still go faster, even on our birthdays."





I suppose it'll go away after a week or so.

shirt.woot

is really my favorite t-shirt site on the planet. I got my random shirts in the mail today! One has a clockwork orange, and the other is sort of adorable.
I want the owl one, but I think I will wait for my refund first.
It is sad that they sold out of my size in the lightning shirt, but hey, I get a coupon for the inconvenience that may have caused!

I have been a little disappointed in the last two derbys, tbh, but there is always next weekend.


Also, I have been home for 6.5 hours and I have already posted in my blog twice. Weird, huh.
I guess as long as we're on the subject, home is much better this time around, maybe because I actually want to be here. I'm not looking forward to wisdom teefs on Tuesday, but it'll be much less bad this time around, or so I am told. Thursday, I may even visit my high school! Wouldn't that be neat. I haven't seen Coulter or Kyhn in a long time.
Speaking of which, I ran into Sarah and Amanda at Borders today. It was weird. I don't know how to explain it. I felt really disheveled and messy and they were really well put together. Also, they caught me in the manga aisle. *shame*
Ummm, I guess I don't miss my friends. Home is a nice change. There is time. There is so much time. It is nice. I have no need to stay up late; I don't know why I am. Just sort of troubled, I guess. I am scared to be alone. It makes it impossible to sleep, but I know I require it.

I miss Erik, but I guess you already knew that.




Sorry for the rambling (why do I apologize this is my blog I have no need to apologize), but methinks it is sleepy tiemz.

these days

it is easier to read comic books than anything else.


I am currently reading Death Note and Kare Kano. I am going to read GEAR as soon as I go back to the dorms on Saturday.
I want

• Blankets
• American Born Chinese
• Bone
• Jimmy Corrigan: The Smartest Kid on Earth

I guess I could buy them all, since I have the majority of my birthday monies left, but you know.
Decisions, decisions.

boots!

I finally have them.

Dr. Martens, 1914



Oh man, I feel like a Nazi when I wear them. They are so boots. So many boots.

let me tell you, bro

I love being back already.

Magnetic poetry with Elyse, Kevin, and Tucker is so many exciting.
I am writing down all this stuff in a few minutes for future reference.





But yes. Sam'n'Erik are coming back tomorrow!

It is so close. SO CLOSE, BRO.


I am going back tomorrow. I am excited for the next day.

What is your reason for living?

Another AskReddit one.


I mainly exist to be utile. And convenient. I like to be helpful. I dunno. I used to pretend to be mean to mask it, I guess, so people wouldn't take advantage of me. But I gave that up! I am too nice, often to my own detriment. Here is my priority list, in case anyone was wondering:
1. Everyone else
2. Leah


It is lame sometimes.

Captain Kirk

is coming back to college with me.


My dad has officially passed him on.
Fuck yeah!

driving

can be fun, if you promise yourself you won't be paranoid. Hella boredom helps with this.



I went to the temples today. It was fucking neat. I feel like a different person. I would have never agreed to this sort of thing before. Before what, I dunno. Just before, I guess. Maybe it is the hella boredom talking.

I am putting off reading, because I know the few books I have left will get done in a few hours each. I am letting this hella boredom escalate before I take any action. In the meantime, I have Professor Layton and Dinosaur Comics. And AskReddit.




I dunno. I feel pretty good today. This is only relatively speaking of course. Break has been a mess.

I like most things more than Magic.

Just sayin'.

Hmmm, so it seems I am on AskReddit more than any other site (excluding facebook).

But anyway, there was one, Describe your father.
So I will.


My dad is a neat guy. I am more like him than anyone else. He's a Trekkie and he likes to stay at home. He's bad at studying and doing what he needs to do, but he gets it done. He's pretty selfless, being a doctor because of us. He'd rather be a historian, but you know how it goes. Doing things you hate, that's what family is. He is one of the smartest people I know. He is a good communicator. He can explain without being condescending. Personally, I think he would make a great professor. I like listening to him talk about politics or science or religion or history. He talks to me now the same way he did when I was four; the same way as he talks on the phone; the same way as he talks at a board meeting. He speaks louder and in English and with very specific words, often pausing to make sure he has the right one. I admire my dad a lot; it is too bad he doesn't know. He does a lot of things to piss me off, most of them are intentional, but yeah, he's a dad. It's understandable.

My dad is neat D:

Sam

She is clear and insightful.

from facebook chat:

but in eriks mind he thinks like this "i love leah. i love dota. i cannot be with leah right now and talking on the phone is hard. dota and scott are here tho."



lolololololol

this is how I would like to communicate

1. there is tie between the phone and irl for first place. There are some things I'd rather say in person (well, I guess inane chit chat) but heavy stuff I reserve for phone calls. I DON'T KNOW WHY.

2. instant messaging. I am putting AIM/Skype over Facebook chat, though, because it is so frustrating sometimes

3. email. If you need to tell me something important (not necessarily urgent, but you know, IMPORTANT) and you expect a for reals reply, the yeah-I-thought-about-it-and-here's-a-couple-paragraphs-detailing-it sort of reply, EMAIL ME.

4. for trivial, urgent stuff, text

5. for trivial, non-urgent stuff, twitter

6. facebook wall/messages, and myspace, I suppose.


Okay, I know that this is not how it actually is.
It is more like text, fb chat and that's it.
And I can live with that, I guess.

I am an idealist, but also highly adaptable.

Burgmuller

I forgot he wrote Arabesque and Ballade! Score.

Today I looked through one of my piano books and I found another Burgmuller piece called Progress. It is pretty.

And yeah, I know he wrote plenty for piano students, but those are so much fun to play. I don't even know.



This is a pretty pointless post, but I do enjoy Burgmuller.

show me what you got

I'm titling this post with a line from the song I am listening. Ultimate Douche!

Anyway, today was surprisingly fantastic. Avoiding facebook is fun.
Instead of the internet, I read and played the piano.

I am so fucking cultured, right?
Ha.


So, piano.
I played some Kabalevsky, which was fun, and some Bartok, and some other assorted stuffs, before I got a major craving for Burgmuller and my sonatina book. I couldn't locate the sonatinas, but with the aid of the internet, I obtained sheet music for Innocence. Oh man, that really could be my favorite piece. I love running notes.

DISCO WALKWAY

first post of 2009

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