where's the in between if everyone's me?

things are weird again I guess

The semester is almost over. One paper, one lab report, finals, and done.

I think I have somehow become stressed out enough that I am longing for Globe. It's a weird thing.

turn on turn on turn on turn on

I am running out.

also, I am procrastinating on a paper, but I write better at 5AM so whatevs.

I am thinking about the future too much. I need to take it easy, maybe, but this does not seem like a thing I would be able to do easily.

It is fairly cold outside now. I like being outside at night until my fingers feel like they will never function properly again, and then coming inside and trying to do something that requires dexterity and being able to do it, but not actually feeling like I am doing anything. I like anything that gives a level of abstraction from the physical world. Like I exist, but not quite.

I don't want it to be break yet, but I need it so much. I need to be away from everything. I need the abstraction from reality. Being in Globe always makes me feel like I am living at 1 cuil, so I guess that is appropriate.

I want to be mopey by myself. It is hard when there is always someone who is willing to humor me, and take the blame. It's not your fault; I just happen to be a crazy person.

Anyway.

Things that are occurring right now:

There is a condom full of juice in my freezer.